ups and downs

Above is my official acceptance into the reserves. Took 9 months, but hey, Rome wasnt built in a day right? Thats the good news. The bad news....

I find myself becoming more and more unsure about this Vegas thing. I am confident that I will pass the written test, physical fitness test and that I would be able to do very well on the oral board examination (if given the chance). What scares me is the PHQ I have fill out right after the written test and the polygraph test. I just feel that I have made too many mistakes in my life for a police department to understand and still hire me. I have already passed a background for Minneapolis Reserves, but that was very tame and there was no polygraph. I can't lie or "forget" to mention something. I wish the department would do all the background shit first so out of town applicants like myself do not have to spend all this money and time to go out and test if our past is going to keep us from an academy spot. Why even let me take the test or the oral boards if there is something I cannot change that will hold me back? Everything I do and everything I have done since October has been for Vegas Metro. I have worked so hard in school, at work and in my free time to get ready for this. I do not know how to put in words just how bad I want this. If I get to the oral boards, it will be huge for me. I hope atleast. I want to tell them how bad I want this and the things I will be sacrificing for just a shot to prove myself. Do not judge me on such a small part of my life (my mistakes). Judge me on all the good I have done. I do the right thing atleast 95 percent of the time. I always show up for class, for work. And I have always been a good worker, I am not perfect, but I do well. I already gave up a good career to get where I am now. I could have taken the UPS driver job and already started a career. But I didn't. I couldn't. I came back to school. To learn. About law enforcement, because this is what I want and who I am. I know I am just spouting off random thoughts now. But its my blog, I don't have a diary and sometimes I just need to type up some thoughts.

Its true if I don't get this it will not be the end of the world. I do have other options, but to be totally honest; DO I REALLY WANT THOSE OPTIONS? I am not really a man that settles for second best. Kinda stubborn like that.

Oh and the next person that tells me it will be fine and tells me I will do great. I am going to punch you in the throat. You don't know that, I don't know that. Only the LVMPD knows if my past is acceptable enough. If you want to give me words of encouragement; just say good luck or hope everything works out the best; or anything similar to that.

Survey Deal

I know there is someone who probably would like to see this: Whats an act of service? Sex? If thats the case why didn't it just say sex? Is it a bad word? sex sex sex sex...hmmm does not feel like a bad word to me.

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Quality Time and Physical Touch

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	8
Physical Touch:	8
Acts of Service:	7
Words of Affirmation:	5
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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Thanksgiving

As we all are aware Thanksgiving is on Thursday. Some of you are excited to spend quality time with family and eat good food. I do not mind the holiday or spending time with the family. The thing that does bother me is the recycled rerun that Thankgiving has become. It is the same shit, different year, every year. I can already predict my whole day up to the part where I finally leave to hang out at Aaron's. This year is looking is dismal for a few reasons. First, I will have to explain to family why I am leaving Minnesota when I graduate college in May and why I chose Las Vegas and then I am sure I will get the "don't give me a speeding ticket" speech like I have received every year since I was 17. Second, I only get about a 36 hour break because of work. And third, I have a 20 page police stress paper due on Monday afternoon that must be done over the weekend. So while my fellow classmates will enjoy a long weekend with friends and family I will be spending most of the weekend alone in Mankato working at G Mill and typing a paper.

The only thing that keeps me from going crazy about the possible fun I may be missing is thinking about LVMPD testing and getting that call inviting me back and getting offered that job. I have come too far to start half assing now. A small part of me tells me I am selfish for making this my non debatable number one priority (my number two isnt even close) but the other part tells me I cant be happy unless I accomplish this goal. 6 weeks left until round 1 of testing.

So I have been shown the youtube of pornography today. Its called youporn, clever name I know. I also saw a lecture called the J Spot tonight. The lecture's main theme was criticizing the US sex education from childhood to adulthood. It was interesting and definitely proved its point in showing how uncomfortable people were talking about sex due to poor education of the topic. Its been a sex filled night to say the least, just without the sex, lol.

Happy Thanksgiving, hope your holiday is everything you hope.

24 Hours

The last 24 hours of my existence have, perhaps, been the best of my life. Even the not so great occurrences have been laughed off.

Looking for a restaurant in a part of town you are not familiar with can be tough. I trusted yellowpages.com to help me with this one. After a brief search I decided that a place called The Italian Pie Shoppe sounded good. Yellowpages.com had their hours of operation and directions on how to get there. Sounds great, right? Wrong! I drove to 777 Grand Ave. in St. Paul to find a dark store surrounded by an even darker parking lot. The store had closed down! Thanks yellowpages.com for failing to mention the restaurant was closed. I actually laughed at this situation pretty damn hard. Leave it to me to choose a closed restaurant.

After my advanced criminal investigations class I was walking back to my apt for a much needed nap after a night of staying up until 8am. Not relevant, don't ask why. Tough to sleep when you are enjoying a good night. Anyways back to the story at hand. I checked my mailbox like I always do when I come back from class. I find a letter from the Minneapolis Police Reserves. I had recently done a background investigation with them for a volunteer police reserve position. Since I had not heard from them in almost 2 months I assumed that I had been denied a position based on a mistake in my background or failure to omit something they wanted to know. I open the letter expecting bad news, but to my surprise the letter was the exact opposite! The letter stated that I had successfully completed the background check and now I need to make an appointment for an interview!!! This is huge! Way huge! On so many levels, this is so big and such good news that I wanted to wildly pump my fists in the air and scream! The acceptance is huge because I am one step closer to getting the police reserve job that gives me experience, training and not to mention a major, major reference for my Las Vegas testing, if I receive the police reserve position with Minneapolis. Second, this means that my driving record is not in serious enough trouble to fail a background check with a major metropolitan police department! If I can pass Minneapolis police reserves background checks, my chances of passing Las Vegas background checks just skyrocketed!! Wow, I am on cloud nine right now. I also have Mall of America security calling me about a open position, which would be another huge job for my resume when I test in Las Vegas this winter and spring. My life is coming together nicely and my hard work and honesty are paying off. Every aspect of life right now is great. Holy cow my adrenaline is pumping right now.

New Music

Instead of participating in the Halloween drunk fest in Madison, WI this year, I attended a concert at the Myth in Maplewood, MN. I bought tickets because a lot of friends were going and the band was one of my favorites back when I was 19 (2003). HIM gave a decent concert the first time I went to their concert back in 2004. Their music has not been the same since they released their "Love Metal" album in 2003-04, I cannot remember the exact year. The live show has seemed to suffer as well. Ville Valo, lead singer, has become a stale, unenergetic front man who is more concerned with lighting his next cigarette than staying in rhythm. I expect to receive adrenaline rushes at live concerts, which HIM failed to deliver.

However, their opening band, Bleeding Through, delivered a high intensity show! I have never ever heard this band before the concert. Halfway through the first song I knew I was going to jump in mosh pit and roam! Shawn, Aaron, and myself rushed through the floor crowd to get to the pit and began tearing it up! I had no idea what Bleeding Through was singing or what their music was about, but I do know it delivered that adrenaline shot up my spine and into my brain. I did not even notice the skin missing from my ankle or the blood on the back of my shirt (still have no idea where that big blood stain came from), but the minor hyperextension of my shoulder during the final song put me on the outerpit for the remainder of the song. Its been awhile since I have found a new metal band that I enjoy.

After the show I went back home to listen to some of Bleeding Through's music and was equally impressed. I also looked at some of their lyrics. The lyrics represent the dark thoughts and emotions humans experience in tragic situations. I will leave a link to Bleeding Through's purevolume.com page if you want to sample their heavy music. http://www.purevolume.com/bleedingthrough Until next time...

The Final Inspection

The Final Inspection

Author Unknown

The policeman stood and faced his God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining. Just as brightly as his brass.

"Step forward now, policeman. How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To My church have you been true?"

The policeman squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord, I guess I ain't, Because those of us who carry badges can't always be a saint.

I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was rough, and sometimes I've been violent, Because the streets are awfully tough.

But I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep.... Though I worked a lot of overtime When the bills got just too steep.

And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears.

I know I don't deserve a place among the people here. They never wanted me around except to calm their fear.

If you've a place for me here, Lord, It needn't be so grand. I never expected or had too much, But if you don't.....I'll understand.

There was silence all around the throne Where the saints had often trod. As the policeman waited quietly, For the judgement of his God.

"Step forward now, policeman, You've borne your burdens well. Come walk a beat on Heaven's streets, You've done your time in hell."

comedy and capn crunch

Acme Comedy Club is a small piece of heaven. The place never seems to disappoint me, EVER! It is even better when you take a guest and it is their first time and even better for me that guest was a cute redhead who enjoyed herself, puts a smile on your face for the 75 mile drive back home. I have never went and saw a show disappointed. Except for that time that prick Alec Baldwin was sitting behind me, but the comics still made it a pleasurable experience. Finesse Mitchell, former SNL cast member, headlined tonight and left my jaw hurting from side splitting laughs. For those of you who have not seen Finesse, I would recommend you search his videos on youtube for a quick laugh. I would also recommend that those of you who have not seen live comedy to give it a chance. Unless you don't like to laugh, if that's the case, keep your serious ass away from comedy and away from me for that matter, lol. I was excited to give Finesse a high five tonight (sitting right in the front is so money) and that he gave me a little razzing too! I have been waiting a long time to get razzed when I go there. Nothing too serious, but I remember my face light up bright red at two different occasions. He even asked me if I got laid a lot while in college. My response was "not as much I would like" and immediately after saying this I could hear a woman behind me say "awww" like it was a truly sad story! Is it sad for a guy to go to a state school and not get drunk and laid like his peers? To be honest, it stopped bothering me a long time ago, good things come to those who are patient, right?

I think I have a beef with those who package Capn Crunch breakfast cereal. The Capn has been apart of my morning for many years, but it is starting to bother me that all of the freaking crunch berries are at the FUCKIN TOP OF THE BOX! When you get to the bottom there is only the yellow, sorry ass bland pieces. What happened to Oops! All Crunchberries cereal? They used to make it, all crunchberries, all day. If I wanted all yellow pieces I would buy that cereal because they sell all yellow piece boxes. But I do not! Give me crunchberries at the top and the bottom.

Google your name?

I decided to google my own name today to see if there are any famous Matt Welter's in this world. My own name never came up for anything, but I found a Matt Welter who is poet, pretty damn popular one it sounds. His work is published in major poetry books. Do you think I could say I was him at a poetry reading or something? I mean I do have proof my name is Matt Welter. How would anyone know what he looks like? He's a poet, not an actor.

Noob

So this is what it feels like to have a blog, huh? First, I would like to thank a lovely young lady for introducing me to the world of self blogging. I guess we will all see how this will go for me. For those of you who do not know me I am the very successful, very disease free gentleman standing behind the minibar. Okay so that's a line from the very funny Old School movie. But if you do not know me and are looking to paint some sort of picture of who I am, read my blogger profile deal. I am working on getting a picture. So check back at your leisure to see if I have a new blog and read what goes through my mind. Its time for my advanced criminal investigations class, crime scene planned drawings today! Very exciting! So I will go shower with the shower head that is 10 inches to short for me. It would be a great shower if I was 5 foot 4, but unfortunately I am 6 foot 4. I have gotten really good at crouching though. Until next time...